Monatsarchiv: November 2011

I’ll forgive you.

It’s been a long year
Since we last spoke
How’s your halo?
Just between you and I
You and me and the satellites
I never believed you
I only wanted to
Before all of this
What did I miss?
Do you ever get homesick?
I can’t get used to it
I can’t get used to it
I’ll never get used to it
I’ll never get used to it

I’m under that night
I’m under those same stars
We’re in a red car
You asleep at my side
Going in and out of the headlights
Could I have saved you?
Would that’ve betrayed you?
I wanna burn this film
You alone with those pills
What you couldn’t do I will
I forgive you
I’ll forgive you
I’ll forgive you
I forgive you

For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
I’ll forgive you

 

Irgenndwann, wenn ich noch älter und hoffentlich weise geworden bin, dann  kann ich das bestimmt. Nicht deinetwegen, meinetwegen. Bis dahin gibt mir dieses Lied einen Vorgeschmack darauf wie es sein könnte. Den Frieden mit die und mir zu schließen. Mit uns.

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R.I.P.

Ich denke, ich kann ihn gehen lassen. Endlich.

Denn das, nachdem ich mich so sehr gesehnt habe, existiert schon lange nicht mehr. Hätte ich das doch Jahre früher gewusst.

Das, was ich liebte, ist nur noch eine Erinnerung, in mir konserviert,  die mir keine andere Frau mehr nehmen kann. Niemand anderes kann das mehr anfassen, streicheln, lieben und  mir wegnehmen. Das, was ich wollte, ist nun weg und wird nie wiederkommen. Und ich kann vielleicht endlich Frieden schließen.

Are you strong enough to stand? Protecting both your heart and mine?

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown.

I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms

And is it worth the wait
All this killing time?
Are you strong enough to stand
Protecting both your heart and mine?

Who is the betrayer?
Who’s the killer in the crowd?
The one who creeps in corridors
And doesn’t make a sound

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I’m so heavy, heavy
So heavy in your arms

This will be my last confession
I love you never felt like any blessing
Whispering like it’s a secret
Only to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart

Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(I’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(I’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(I’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
my beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown

I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he had me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground

I’m so heavy, heavy in your arms.

Heavy, i’m so heavy in your arms.

 

Ich weiß, dass ich das bin. Zu oft zu schwer für jemandes Arme und Herz. Und mein „Ich liebe dich“ eine Last.

Zeitlos.

Quelle

“My name is Anna Taggaro. And I’m a junior at Tree Hill High. And… I’m gay. And straight. And a Latina. And I hate labels. And I hope by the time you see this, those things won’t be an issue. For now, all you need to know is this: My name is Anna. And I’m just trying to find my way, like most kids. I guess that part is timeless.”